Insist to Persist

IT was Friday.  IT felt like Monday.  So--I had to put it on a Monday cause the feelings were just too draggy for a Friday.  Ever have those days you wonder why you do--what you do?  For me, an at home mom. Teacher to my kids.  This job has no glory.  No esteem. . .at least not on this earth.  No “ladders” to climb and get “bigger.”  Nonetheless it’s my job.  And it’s what I’m called to do.  Here is the thing--I think many at home moms struggle with: The Dream, the Co-Workers & the companionship -that goes with it. Importance. A pay check.  Communicating with people. . .regularly - -that are your own age.  Getting out of the house (often).

 Cause you know us at home moms are in gray sweats all day with long oily bedraggled hair down to our waists, bare feet (oh that’s rough in the winter), excepting when we go out, then the bonnet goes on!  OH YEA!  Haha.  You get the picture..the stigma shall I call it.

So at times the inward struggle happens.  Especially on the days that you are just trying to keep the patience.  Trying not to freak out.  Burst.  Cause the precious littles can have those days when they yank and tug and pull -the patience- all day:

 “Just do what I told you.”
  “If you would have been focusing that would have taken you ½ the time  (in an undertone). . . At most!”       “You mess up your bed every day what makes you think that you don’t have to make it today?”

 And on. And on.  You get the picture.  These days are inevitable.  So that was my Friday, just "keeping it together."  Just hanging by a thread.  Just trying to say a little prayer here and there in desperation…try to keep -the patience-.

But I will not give up.  Won’t give in.  This is what I am supposed to do in my life.  God will give the strength.  All I need for that day is to persevere.  No need to consider “a real job,” no need to consider “wow, the extra money would be nice…oh maybe work just enough to cover the grocery bill.”  No  need to think, “the time away from home, the friends …the adventure.”  Life with kids is an adventure!  I will never look back and say wow wish I spent less time with my kids.  Being home is valuable, it is good, it is worth it.  Glory or recognition for it won't come in this world.  But who needs it anyway!  My heart and mind are at peace where I’m at.   Even though some days the peace is waaay deeeep inside :).  It is good.  Life is good.  Someday I will have more time to spend with friends.  More time for what I want to accomplish.  Not today.  Thankful for the ones I have.  And thankful for my Job.   My kids.  My husband.
Be encouraged.  Be thankful.  Some days are just tough.  Sometimes a lot of days are tough.  Life is full of ups and downs, we ride the roller coaster…even though sometimes it makes us sick.  Stick-to-it-ive-ness is at a loss in our culture today.  Possibly -near extinction.  Though it remains a very good thing.   In all the ups and downs there is one truth that is constant, one thing that always stays the same.  God’s word-it is dependable.  At times the only thing we Can count on.

  For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.  Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

Hebrews 4:12-13