Sweet Betrayal

A sort of heart break I never new existed.  You give all you have. . .and all you don’t.  You never knew there could be such trials - out of your own little ones.  At one time in diapers, and ever since you do everything for them.  Everything.  And once in a while you might get out for something you personally enjoy.

 I guess it was my naivety not knowing that sooner or later that as my children get older they will grow into adult personalities.  With that - attitudes, strong ones, as strong or stronger than adults have.   Of course in that they need guidance.  A friend of mine said it in a wise way:  From infant to 9 or ten years we are taking care of mainly physical needs, food, clothing, playing and the like. But somewhere around 9 years and older. . .now it is time to take care of their emotional needs.  They are many.  We need to guide them through that.

Learning about the art of betrayal from your own child is a painful lesson.  And there are many routes it can be accomplished.  Attitudes. Words . . or lack of.  Lies. Body language.  They deny what you pour into them each day.  And it hurts.  <Perhaps I could say it angers. . .and..maybe, at first--until you realize the true emotion is somewhere along the lines of hurt, or fear (maybe fear that you are not “doing it right’)>.
If you have ever felt fully betrayed,  The deep cut. The confusion of -why-…by your son or daughter can I just say:

It is a blessing.

Why?  I realized this as I was thinking over things trying to sort out events in my head.  Being betrayed by your child…different than by a friend or even a spouse. . .a child, Your child.
Wow, could this be a glimpse even if a small glimpse, into the love God has for us.  “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”  -Romans 5:8.  We have betrayed Him, time and time again, through our sin.  And there it lays out flat for God to see, and he pours out his forgiveness and love even though our betrayals have caused Him pain, have “cut Him.”  He loves.  He forgives.  And then like an extra dose of grace continues his work as a potter.  Then you begin to understand the vastness of His grace.

There is so much to learn about our relationship with God, when we relate it to our relationships with our children.

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, 

For his compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23

I pray that my grace for my children will be renewed each morning!

A Slate wiped clean.